How I Am

How am I?

Ok, I'm closing in on the final month of being in Hong Kong, still out of a job, still short of a degree, still unemployed and dependent on the parental units, still single, still haven't found the one who's "exactly like me ... except in a guy" and definitely not in love with anyone, still in debt, still the same person that I am -- haven't exactly upgraded into sainthood yet, as many people have told me living abroad would do the trick -- approaching the age 23 with seven days left, which means I'm another year older, another year spent, another year less for the future .... Yeah, the morale is a little low at this point, but ...

... if living means all of the above, while dying means none of it, if anything at all, then I'm very glad to be here, at least for the opportunity to share all of this with you.

Playing Crazy "Where is Carmen San Diego?"

It's like playing "Where is Carmen San Diego?" the game ...

... but with way higher stakes.

Where are you, friend? I am worried about you. Your brother is worried about you. I'm sorry if I made too big of a deal to find you, but it's important to me, and it might be even more important to you if anything has happened.

I am so sorry about everything that has happened in the past. The past ... that word is so easy to say. Yes, the past lingers and haunts. But no, it doesn't linger and haunt forever ... if we decide to go on for a little longer to see what comes next, it'll be a better day!

We love you. Each and every one of us care. You know that ... you KNOW that. So let us take care of you.

Put down your pride, if that's what it is. We already know you can take care of yourself, but we just want to take care of you right now.

Put down your fear, if that's what it is. We already know you can be strong, and you already know we don't judge. We have no right to judge because we need the same support from you for the inevitable falls.

Put down your sorrow, and I know that's what it is. We know it hasn't been easy.

Sometimes, "Monopoly" can be an easier game to play (than "Where is Carmen San Diego?" in this case). You just have to assess your investments for the proper returns. ... You have made your investments; now reap your returns.

So what do you have to lose now to come to open arms?

Best Place

I found the perfect place to study!! I love it! It's at the Chinese Research Centre, and I actually can get decent internet connection here ... for the timebeing anyway. It's quiet, has a nice view, people are nice, and the atmosphere is so academic that I just feel like I have a reason to study! Ahhh, college campuses and libraries are just some of the best places on earth!

A VERY Fun Night

So yeah, I just had a great time today, even though I got nothing done. But whatever.

I met up with Steffany for lunch (Stef and I are both DUCKS!!! and we had class together 2 years ago, and we're both ISP majors! AHH!) and wandered around, talking, blah blah blah, went to the German ambassador to China's talk, dinner, decided to strike up a convo with some dude we ran into 3 times during the day, and watched a movie with him and his international friends.

Wow!! Real human contact/social interaction for the first time in LONG TIME (minus the time when my brother, cousins and Valerie were in Hong Kong in December)!! I really hope that I'll have that opportunity again soon. I just love meeting new people, and I love talking and being weird and all that jazz. I guess ... I just love living life, maybe that's it.