As Childish Smiles Fade

Hmm. I was looking around on Facebook, which I don't often visit, for people. Just people. Just being nosy. Just ... bored, mostly.

To my surprise -- well, ok, maybe I saw it coming -- many people in my high school graduating class are married.

I saw their wedding photos, their names change, their "first Christmas tree" purchases, their rings on their fingers, and their childish smiles fade.

Hmmph. Married.

Boy, are we getting old.

More Like a Sleeper's Block

I am not sure if I am actually having a writer's block. I have things that I do want to write about. I am just lacking patience to actually go through with the writing part, and I am definitely lacking in sleep.

For whatever reason, my neck and back have been hurting quite a bit lately -- it used to be stress, but now that there isn't as much stress, I am suspecting other things. I'm sure the typing has a lot to do with it, but I also think something of how I sleep. It's either the pillow or the mattress. I just don't know which yet. But I would wake up multiple times during the night, truncating a wonderful 7-hour night into miserable 2- or 3-hour bits. Then, of course, I'd wake before 6 in the morning because I'd want to see Brian off. Afterwards, I'd have to fall back to sleep because I'd still be tired and need to make up for what sleep I had lost over the night. 3.5 hours later, at 9:30 or 10, I'd still be tired.

I spent 7 hours in bed not sleeping, and then another 3.5 hours to make up for what I didn't get in the previous 7 hours and get unsatisfactory results.

All of this adds up to a royal waste of time.

No wonder why I can't do anything right.

Ramble Ramble

I seem to be having trouble writing anything meaningful.

Ok, I dedicate tomorrow as a writing day. 6:00am bright and early ... actually, not so bright, but definitely early!

I also loaded some artsy pictures of mine onto Flickr (yeah, I do point and shoot ... haha!). Here's the URL:
www.flickr.com/photos/e-bombs_world

Check it out, people!

Ideas

Thematic:
In Hong Kong -
Conformity vs. Non-conformity
- Divergent perspectives from parents'
- Confined
- coloring outside of the boundaries

Rebellion
- Stealing

Parents' high hopes
- Choir try-outs; crying
- "US is a place where you gain respect by being really good at something."

In US -
Racial difference
- Speaking really loudly as if I don't understand
- "Where are you from?" "Portland." "No, really. Where are you from?"
- Polish English by listening to the radio

Descriptive:
- Chinese New Year and red pockets
- Ride from mother's mother's house and the moon
- Filippino dinner
- Stuffed animal friends