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What do I do?

What do I do?

I breached the very foundation of the relationship, and I am not sure how that's going to be rebuilt.

That's what's good about our relationship, I know. If I didn't have a valid reason, I wouldn't have done something like that carelessly. And I did have a valid reason.

Why can't I convey that?

I know why he is angry. He thinks, How could she doubt me so easily, basing only on what her friends say? Didn't I prove myself enough? Why did she turn her back on the trust that we've built so easily?

But it was not easy, and I did not rely only on what my firends say. I thought wrong, ok? I know I thought wrong. But what about the things that he did or didn't do that gives me the wrong message, or mixed signals, at the least? Is it so impossible? And I was expected to talk to him about it, as if I could just go, "Hmm, it's the wrong message. Let me talk to him about it."

(The truth is, I wasn't even consulting anyone to begin with. I was venting, which only consists of "Yeah, this happened over the weekend, and it made me very unhappy". And you can't vent to the source of problems because, then, it would just become "dragging someone through the mud".
Once I started venting, people who care about me started warning me of supposed red flags because to them, they were red flags. Coming from the safe perspective where I trusted him, I panicked upon hearing the grim news.
What's so hard to understand?)

I feel like I can never be happy again.

What do I do?