Funny Thing
I was bored and ran into this page (http://www.numerology.freesoul.com/), where they asked me to add some numbers up (my birthday and this year, so 3+1+5+2+0+0+8=19, then 1+9=10, then 1+0=1, so my year cycle is 1). And what I got is really interesting. Sounds familiar ....
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THE 1 YEAR CYCLE
A journey of change,
new beginnings, independence
and becoming who you really are!
Not everything that is faced can be changed,
but nothing can be changed until it is faced.
James Baldwin
No matter how familiar things may seem, you are on an entirely different road now. The 1 year is the first year of a brand new nine-year cycle of your life. It urges you to create a more satisfying existence by recognizing the new potential that is developing. It is a time of change and new beginnings. Last year brought an entire nine-year era of your life to an end and was probably emotional and confusing. However, those experiences were necessary so that this year's new beginnings can occur. The past is over, but you will need to release the feelings and beliefs that are still anchoring you to it. Then, instead of being shocked or confused by this year's changes, you will more easily understand their purpose.
This is a year of new interests, experiences, goals, and understandings: about life, about you, where you have been, where you are now, and where you would like to be. And, because so much drastic change is required, you will also be learning the meaning of courage. You will gain self awareness this year. You will learn about individuality, and the vital changes that must take place within you if you are to attain what you need. You will be learning about independence, leadership, and originality, and you will need great faith in yourself in order to take appropriate action. You will encounter situations involving your deepest feelings, your unique mind and talent, and your need for greater freedom.
You will be learning to adapt to the changes taking place inside you and around you, while your ability to lead yourself and others gets tested. Your progress will be helped along by new opportunities and understandings. Just remember that 1 is also the number of individuality, and that no one can define freedom for another without limiting freedom.
Accept the need for real and significant change. Develop a realistic sense of your own self-worth. Listen to and follow your feelings. What you do this year will set the course for the next nine years. This should provide all the incentive you need to make your decisions carefully and realistically. And by accepting the reality of your past, you will become more aware of who you really are. If you think you already know your true identity, be prepared for some astonishing new truths to emerge.
You may start to doubt beliefs and attitudes you held dear, as you realize they are no longer appropriate to current circumstances. You may start to feel out of place around people with whom you have always felt comfortable, and may question their continuing role in your life. Doubts may arise as to how you can be free when responsibilities or circumstances seem to stand in your way. Feel every feeling that arises around such issues. At some point, you will instinctively know that it's time to move in a completely different direction, even if it means doing so alone.
Never forget that this year you are learning to be independent. Attaining independence often brings feelings of isolation and loneliness. Those you thought you could count on may become unavailable to you. Attaining independence always produces guilt which must be seen for the destructive force it is, otherwise you will become stuck in a painful rut of resentment, confusion, and blame.
Welcome new activities. Change monotonous routines. Without change - drastic change - you may find yourself being buffeted around with no Will of your own for a long time to come. The 1 year cycle gives you the opportunity to fix your bearings and choose the direction you want to take. It enables your Will to emerge as the only alternative to guilt and fear. Problems will arise for as long as you resist change. Stay flexible. Your firmest goals may be diverted into unexpected new directions.
The only thing you can reliably expect this year is change. One change will lead to another, and then another, transporting you physically, emotionally, and/or spiritually far from where you thought you would be. Consider what is best for you, and then go ahead in that direction. Start afresh. Decide which direction you want your long term future to take and, even if it means starting small, take decisive steps toward these goals.
Your various relationships are vitally important. So much love and happiness can be experienced there. However, you cannot depend on anyone else for your happiness or success. Rely only on you. Try to surround yourself with realistic, freethinking people who do not judge and criticize your every move. Have the same consideration for them.
Although the emphasis is on you this year, guilt will tell you that you are wrong to focus so keenly on yourself and that ego is the problem. It is not. The solution is to stop judging yourself. This will enable you to balance your ego between overblown or deflated.
You may have to break free from people who habitually disapprove of you or your plans, or those who want to control you. Know what you want and believe in yourself. If your abilities are lacking in some way, take the time to learn what is necessary to fulfill your intentions.
As you strive toward freedom, you will notice that others become less dependent or critical. The more self-accepting you are, the happier everyone will be. Confidence is not an 'act' that hides your fear or ignorance. It is a natural feeling that comes from your acceptance of reality. Once you accept the reality of your desires and potentials, and what you have to do to fulfill them, you will know that although you don't know all the answers yet, they will come to you because you have a genuine intent to learn, and an openness which can utilize new information. Confidence is the ability to accept change as it occurs, and it will occur this year.
Always be aware of what is going on locally and globally, and plan accordingly. Begin something substantial. Failure to start a new project, activity, job, hobby, or even a new attitude, will result in a directionless frame of mind which will keep you tied to undesirable people, places, and circumstances. At least, start a new phase of an existing situation. If you do not make changes where they are needed, they will be made for you.
Without change, we struggle to hold on to fruitless situations. As 1 is the number of independence, you will be aware of your various dependencies this year. Imagine the freedom you would enjoy without them. These may include a dependence on others, a need to keep others dependent on you; a need for approval; on substances such as food, tobacco, alcohol, drugs; or distractions such as 'entertainment', computers, or extravagance. You may be disguising your addictions so that they are unrecognizable, even to yourself. The key is to trace the emotional cause of why you need certain things so badly.
It could take years for you to achieve certain results, but projects or ideas started three years ago can materialize as accomplishments this year, leaving you pleasantly astonished as loose ends from the previous nine-year cycle are finally tied up. Understand the need for time to pass between one experience and the next, and you will enjoy many pleasant surprises this year. Aim high, believe in your goals, and never give up the pioneering spirit that is essential in the 1 Year Cycle. Remember that learning from mistakes is how experience is gained.
Work through your fears instead of denying them and you will be able to explore humanity's journey with an open mind and promote your own desires and interests along the way. Much of what occurs this year will be reflected back to you through events taking place elsewhere. Once you make that connection, you will be able to see exactly where you and your talents fit in. This year, you will learn that life is not meant to be a struggle but a continuous free-flowing journey of energy that moves, shifts, vibrates, spirals, and evolves through cycles of learning.
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They also had this to say about my life challenges:
The challenge contained in the 6 energy is what you need to overcome in order to create the destiny of your choice. Failing to learn these lessons acts as a barrier to your happiness and success. In other words, this can be your downfall, if you allow it to be. What makes the challenge so difficult to overcome is that you will tend to deny that it exists. And the more you deny it, the more it will stand between you and your marvelous potential.
Problems occur when you exaggerate or deny the reality of your situation, especially when it comes to what you perceive as responsibilities. When you take on too much, as you often do, you become resentful of others who seem to be infringing on your freedom, even though it was you who encouraged them to do so in the first place. You tend to give people the impression that you will take care of their needs and problems, only to end up ignoring or resenting these people when their needs and problems become too much for you.
Don’t be so quick to volunteer. Most of the people who know you also know that your intentions are good. What they often don’t realize is that you find it extremely difficult to say “no”. In the end, you can confuse everyone by giving up entirely on your responsibilities and pleasing no one at all, including yourself. Then, all your relationships suffer
6 is the number of balance. Therefore,you NEED to feel equal to those around you. You need to admit that you have this need. It all stems from a childhood in which you were given too much responsibility or no responsibility at all. Your life’s experiences have probably taught you that there is no point in trying to control other people or situations. You can also become afraid when things do not go smoothly. You can react to chaos with such exaggeration that all you produce is more chaos. What you need to accept is that a certain amount of chaos is inevitable in life and is often needed to bring about constructive change.
You also need to learn how to react from your heart rather than your head. This way, people will get to know and love the positive you instead of the you who always looks for the negatives in a situation. When this challenge is overcome, you will find yourself in a position of great popularity, because you will be able to see the positive aspects of other people and then use this insight to help them take responsibility for and improve their own lives. This will give you the time and space to develop your own desires and to create a wonderful destiny for yourself.
And they call this my "destiny number:"
3, the life-long path of EXPRESSION
“The value of words is often underestimated.
Like smudges on a pair of spectacles, they have the
ability to blur everything you do not make crystal clear.
Listen with great care to what is being said and choose
your own words as if they were diamonds”
Sally Brompton
COMMUNICATION is your purpose in this life-time. You are learning how to communicate effectively. You will find that problems arise from lack of communication or when you express yourself inappropriately. Words are the key to your success and happiness. But until you learn what must be learned on this path, words can also be your downfall.
You entered this lifetime for the purpose of communicating something specific and important. However, it may take a long time to remember what it was you came here to express. It may take you even longer to find the most convincing way to express it. Until you understand that communication is your purpose for being here, words may forever be a problem rather than the tremendous talent they are meant to be.
Consequently, you may talk incessantly while communicating relatively little. Or, you may believe you are a great communicator when, in fact, you dominate a conversation because you do not know how to listen. Communication is an ongoing exercise in output and feedback - receiving and delivering valid information. If you do not learn to listen attentively to others, you may gain the reputation of being superficial.
Whatever your most constant problems in life are, they are all “clues” to the direction your communications should take. The 3 destiny has given you a tremendous talent or ”way” with words. You have used words to talk your way out of many a sticky situation, haven’t you? What you may not realize, however, is that it was your own words which caused many of your sticky situation in the first place. The point is, 3, you must find a purposeful outlet for this wonderful ability.
The following 3 destiny people have unusual and memorable voices. Or, they have the ability to use their voices in unusual ways: Bill Cosby, Melanie Griffith, Barbara Walters, Alan Alda, Rod Stewart, Joan Rivers, Kevin Spacey, Tracy Ullman, Katie Couric, Pierce Brosnan, Jerry Hall, Dionne Warwick, Connie Chung, Billy Dee Williams, John Travolta, David Bowie, Robert Townsend, Johnny Mathis, Harry Belafonte, Celine Dion, Jodie Foster, Gloria Gaynor, Peter Graves, Herbie Hancock, Phil Collins, Hillary Rodham Clinton, Dr. Ruth Westheimer. Similarly, people remember your voice because there is something unusual about it. This ensures that when you do remember what you are supposed to be communicating, and when you do find the appropriate words, you will be listened to and remembered.
3s have a tendency to deny or “play down” their emotions - how they really feel. They are more concerned with giving the appearance that everything is o.k., even when problems are obvious. Others can be impressed with the way you seem to bounce back from adversity as if nothing ever happened. Until they get to know you....
Eventually they realize that you have been holding all that emotion IN instead of expressing it and allowing it to leave your body. Once others see through your facade, they become frustrated by your lack of emotion. Friendships are lost because others feel you do not want to help yourself. But, of course, they do not understand your complex nature. They do not understand your fear that friends will be lost if you burden them with your problems. 3s are notorious for “keeping up appearances”. They desire popularity and social acceptance. They have a tendency to turn their problems into jokes. This way, no one has the opportunity to criticize or find fault in them.
3s guilt exists because it is the energy of joy and lightheartedness. Many 3s mistakenly believe that they are not allowed to show any emotion other than happy exuberance. Consequently, they live “shallow” lives. But when 3s dare to go beneath their own surface and accept that their emotions are as real as anyone else’s, their lives become deep, indescribably beautiful, and richly creative. You are attracted to creative people because you secretly admire their ability to feel.
Until you learn to take yourself more seriously in this regard, others will not be able to take you seriously either. And, with all that natural talent you have inside, just waiting to be accepted and expressed, this can be a very frustrating way to live. The trick, of course, is to take yourself seriously without becoming too serious. Humor and laughter are vital ingredients of your personality. They provide the “finishing touch” to genuine healing.
Although happiness is a major part of what you are meant to be communicating, you will be unable to develop the language you need until you, yourself, are able to feel happiness. And that’s the problem: There is a huge difference between humor and happiness. Ask any professional comedian about that. You will never be able to feel and experience genuine happiness until you let go of all that sadness that is buried deep inside; all that grief you are refusing to accept and express, and all that anger and fear you are burying under what you call your sense of humor.
3s want and need to be popular, and there is no more popular position on Earth than that of making others feel “good” about themselves. Whether you know it or not, this is the position you came here to fill. However, it is your “experience in the field” that will decide when, or whether, you get the job. How much experience with happiness have you actually had?
3s gain this experience by having the courage to do what they want to do; to do what their natural energies urge them to do. Not what they hope will please other people. Not what they believe they are limited to because of lack of opportunity, funds, or education. Self-approval, and not just its appearance, is what you must strive for. Then you can live free from the worry of who you should be pleasing or trying to impress. You must learn to impress, please and be yourself.
Stop worrying about what others think of you. Peer pressure has always been the source of much unhappiness in your life. You are afraid of your emotions because they are so intense. But your feelings are nothing to be afraid of. Why is it that the most emotional people in the world are also the most creative? And why are the most creative people also the most successful? Because they are driven by the way they feel.
3s are so afraid of being hurt, that they bottle up their feelings, especially the feeling of fear. Appearances, physical and otherwise, play a very large role in your life, and this is perfectly natural for you. Accept your natural desire to be attractive, popular, and appreciated. But notice how you cling to the trivial and mundane because you are afraid of taking anything too seriously. Rather than risk the pain of failure or disappointment, you tend to view opportunity as potential trouble, rather than potential happiness. Remember all the opportunities that have slipped through your fingers over the years. Remember the ones that slipped conveniently into the hands of someone you thought was a friend.
And that brings us to the next important aspect of the 3 destiny. FRIENDS. It may take you a whole lifetime to realize what friendship really is. Eventually, time and circumstances will teach you that people change along with their priorities. So do the feelings people have for one another. It can be painful for a 3 to realize that they no longer have anything in common with someone they believed was a life-long friend. 3s are highly influenced by the opinions and lifestyles of friends. So much so that they do not bother to use their own creative powers to be original. What was once considered to be friendship often turns into resentment. These are not easy aspects for you to deal with, let alone admit to. But please don’t run away from this experience. Only by facing these issues will you be able to see the enormity - and sheer beauty - of your higher potential. And isn’t the quest for your higher potential the reason you are reading this book in the first place?
Just remember that it is not your role to keep everyone happy or to sacrifice your own happiness in the name of friendship or social acceptance. This is the negative side of the 3 destiny in which the happiness you came here to experience will forever elude you.
You are a natural performer, but there is no need for you to be “on stage” all the time. Your natural energies thrive in natural surroundings. When you are calm and centered, you will find that your greatest inspiration comes from nature itself. You must learn to be comfortable when you are alone with nature; alone with yourself. Part of learning how to communicate is to “listen”, to accept feed-back, and to “change your act” when the feed-back is less than enthusiastic. Listen very carefully, and allow others to have their say.
Deep down, 3s know they are meant to communicate. Some assume that they must, therefore, always be right. If you do not listen to what others have to say, you cannot know if you are right. You will miss the other side of the story. Without the input of others, you cannot learn anything new. This is a difficult lesson for a 3.
Do not be swayed by popular opinion. We are living in times of great change. Therefore, what may have been true yesterday, may not be true today. Be willing to learn new things and your communications will always be fresh, entertaining, and inspiring. There is no need for you to be constantly talking, gesturing, making people laugh, gossiping, and expressing what you have heard about other people and popular trends. Your ability to listen must be perfected.
3s are often found in the beauty business or other creative fields. This is a good start. But, eventually, you will realize that surface beauty is only an illusion. Your true talents will emerge when you learn to look beneath the surfaces of things and people. Then you will discover - actually see - the reality of what you are dealing with. You will know whether these things and people are what you really want in your life. Never judge a book by its cover, or a person by their “look”. It is all veneer. True beauty is a matter of what is going on inside.
Creativity is one of the most precious gifts that the 3 energy offers. When your imagination is free from the masochistic bonds of peer pressure, your creative capabilities will astonish you and everyone around you. Your approval is the only approval you need. It will come when you realize just how much positive and creative energy exists inside you - under the surface. It will come when you allow yourself to feel this energy. And, when you do, there will be no question as to whether you take yourself seriously or not. No one has more potential for creative genius than a 3. Unfortunately, it is also true that no one is more prone to wasting this potential than a 3. This does not have to be the case with you.
Your urge to follow popular things and people, and to establish a position for yourself in society, is not without significant reason. Your desire to be popular is part of the 3 experience. You need to be liked. But you spend so much time trying to please everyone else that you have no time to figure out what you are meant to be doing for yourself. Many 3s give the appearance of being superficial when, in fact, their feelings run very deep indeed. Once you start to express your deeper feelings, your life will start to unfold naturally and beautifully.
It can be difficult for you to focus on one thing at a time. Your well disguised self-consciousness often outweighs your ability to concentrate. You tend to scatter your energies in too many different directions. Your ability to start things is impressive. The problem lies in your ability to finish things. Here is yet another reason why you feel others do not take you seriously enough. And, ironically, one of the reasons you cannot focus on one thing long enough to complete it is that you are worried, in the first place, about the approval of others. It is a vicious circle until you learn to take full responsibility for your own happiness, your own success, and your own life.
When you worry about what others think of you, your imagination becomes stifled. It cannot produce the creative wonders that you are capable of producing. A free imagination is LIMITLESS. You may believe that you are already creative. Others may see your talent too. But it is probably only a pale reflection of your true potential. If your ideas are not original then your imagination is not free. Your ideas cannot be original if they are based on pleasing others.
Your light and humorous approach, your optimistic expression, your social inclination, and your emphasis on friends, represent some beautiful 3 characteristics. Still, you must learn to focus. Your concentration is prone to drifting, even to the point of blackout, particularly when you are bored, unwilling to face a particular reality, or unable to tolerate silence. Some 3s become so self-conscious in a quiet atmosphere that they will talk about anything in order to end the silence.
When 3s get talking, they can talk up a storm. They often find themselves on one giant verbal roll. Sometimes they have a difficult time bringing the conversation to an end. They appear to be, and are, repeating themselves and talking incessantly. They feel that they must communicate, even when they have nothing to say. This is a negative trait until it is realized that, in social situations, there is no need to fear silence and no need to constantly prove how “sociable” and friendly you are.
Watching and listening to 3s telling a story or recounting an experience, is quite an experience in itself. The pitch of the voice changes according to the attention being received. Watch how the 3 reacts to and interacts with an audience, how he physically moves into the audience, how he draws the audience back into the story, and maintains its attention. He can repeat the same story time and time again, along with the same mannerisms, the same sound-bites, and the same enthusiasm as when the story was first told. If the listeners tire of the story, embellishments are added to keep it exciting. When a 3s communication skills are not developed, we see and hear a person who constantly repeats the same old stories as if they are stuck somewhere in the past and unable to move on. However, when a 3 realizes that intelligent, timely, and purposeful communication is his or her function in life, we see and hear a person who has the power to influence and inspire the entire world.
When you really do focus for a prolonged period on something you feel passionate about, you are truly a beauty to behold and your form of expression remains fresh and alive. You need to establish what you want from life and to surround yourself with others who are pursuing similar goals. Finding what you want to do; that thing that makes your heart beat faster and makes time stand still, signifies a vital turning point in the 3 destiny which leads to the happiness you are seeking.
You belong in a field or lifestyle that appreciates and contributes to creativity, and offers an abundance of social contact. If you are not involved in creative pursuits, then you need to be around those who are. You are meant to be with creative, passionate, emotional people so that you can understand the creative process, learn to take your emotions seriously through their example, and find your own passion - your own Will - your own creative dream - along the way.
Recognize your strong tendency to criticize or ridicule others, especially in your younger more immature years, and especially in reference to their appearance. These anti-social traits need to be turned around into the positive so that you learn the art of sociability. You can hurt other people with your careless use of words, but if others criticize you, you can be cut to the quick. Never dish out what you cannot take. 3 is the energy of appearances, and your own appearance has manifested for the purpose of making you memorable. The way you look is important to you, but there is likely to be at least one physical aspect that causes you concern. 3 is the energy of attraction, and you must realize just how attractive you are when your emotions are free and you are being yourself. Almost miraculously, when your emotions are free, your physical appearance changes to meet your own approval. In other words, if you believe you are beautiful, so will everyone else. But remember we are talking about belief - not pretense - not the appearance of belief.
Your ability to attract is part of your destiny experience. But you must also be aware that as life proceeds, appearances change. It is important that you learn to recognize and move along with these changes. 3s often get stuck in “time-warps”, causing them to cling to people and things that were once “fashionable”, but are now clearly out of place. Popularity is important to you, but it can only be maintained in the present, otherwise the only people you will attract are those who are also “stuck” in some long-gone segment of time. If you find yourself surrounded by those who are constantly reminiscing about “old” times, and repeating the same old stories, you may have to update your understanding of living in present time. The only way to release yourself from the anchors of the past is to release those old unexpressed emotions that are holding you there.
Eventually you will learn that your appearance - your physical presence - is a matter of what you are feeling on the inside. Once you recognize your self-consciousness and learn to relax with yourself, inside and out, you will start to attract the very people you need and desire instead of a string of superficial “friends” who are going nowhere and have nothing to offer.
You have the gifts of words, attraction, sociability, creativity, optimism, memory, friendship, and humor. Use these precious talents to see beyond what others see; to break through those confines of popular opinion and dare to follow your own heart; to do what you want to do; to accept and release the pains of life, so that JOY can replace them, and not just the pretense of joy that many people seem content with these days. Your purpose is to discover internal happiness through your own experience and to communicate it externally to others. You have the power to lift others out of that negative spiral of gloom and doom in which so many are trapped.
Find your own happiness and others will realize that they can find theirs too. Take yourself and your 3 destiny seriously, because what the world needs more than anything right now is a serious dose of 3s optimism, beauty, and laughter.
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