Understated Supernova

Today is my 25th birthday, and honestly, I feel differently this year.
No, actually, I feel complicated. I feel ...

I feel like I don’t know how I feel.
It makes perfect sense to me, but does that make sense to you?

There are so many things going through my mind right now, but they are all like cars with half an engine -- something is there, but it isn’t really working.

I thought about my life -- where it was and where it is and where it will be.
I thought about the very beginning, the very present and the very future.

I thought about all the closed and opened doors ... and all the keys I hold.

Knowing the things that I hold true today will most likely change into something very untrue tomorrow, and those that are quite unsuited will be fitting like a glove, ...
it is all a bit unnerving. Exciting, yes, but unnerving as well.

No one strives to be a failure, no one strives to be ungrateful,
and no one wants to be unhappy.

We all just want to be joyful and loved.

I don’t really know what I am saying here. I don’t know if all this has a point ... yet. But I know that, from my humble beginning that enabled me to look at the world with different lenses, I am marching the distance to my own beat understatedly, quietly to make an exploding supernova.

Here I come.