Psychoanalysis

What is it?
At this juncture, is it his problem or is it mine?
We both know that something is amiss, something's changed.
But what exactly is it?
Is it his solitary lifestyle?
Is it my age difference?
Is it our communication differences?
What is it?

Why am I sad?
Am I sad because this "relationship" isn't working out?
Because this reminds me of past pains and disappointments?
Am I sad because I don't understand him?
Am I sad because I feel rejected?
Or is it because I can't make him feel any different (better) about life when he's with me?
Or is it because I've actually grown attached?

Why am I anxious?
Is it because I've come to rely on him these couple of months?
Is it because I don't have a job and another place to live?
Is it because I don't have a mode of transportation on my own?
Is it because it sounds too much like the dire scenario just a year ago?

Why am I angry?
Is it because I feel deceived?
Is it because I feel I've been underestimated and misunderstood?
Is it because I feel that he doesn't care?
Is it because I feel that he is selfish and self-centered?
Is it because I feel small?
Is it because I feel like I've lost the clarity I once had?

What is he thinking? What is he feeling?
I don't know how to ask.