New? Not.

Why are you self-destructive? No, don't you even compare "missing someone that moved away", and it "is secretly getting to you" with "overloaded with life". Your shit cannot compare to me. You don't deserve to be self-destructive. You have not a good reason to be. You don't deserve to pity yourself. You made your choice, so you live with it. You are the person you choose to be -- granted some choices are harder than others. But you've made you own choice. Now you are self-destructive over it? How pathetic.