Where Are You?

Today, something strange hit me. I just realized that no matter how much I deny it, I know deep down I still want the fabled other half, a true companion, a soulmate, someone to count on, to admire, to love, to dream with, to talk to about anything ... all the things that I thought Brian was and could be, and everything that he promised to be. I am not ready to have someone make me feel like Ive got butterflies fluttering in my stomach, let alone having someone to make me feel like giving myself to. (Im not even fine to date around or mess around!) But theres gotta be better people out there for me to feel the same for and more ... someone who wouldnt just choose the easiest and fastest way out of my life. But then again, who knows? ... Who knew?