On Regret (aka. Singing Casey's Song)
Kids, I suggest that you never do anything you will regret, never do anything you know is wrong, never hurt anybody if you can help it, because whether it is entirely your fault, or what the entire story is, no one cares.
People will still talk about you badly behind your back, they will still hate you, they will still point fingers at you, they will still write defamatory songs about you, they will curse you 'til the end of time, wishing you will never see sunshine in your life every again, and they will not care what you have gone through to get to this point in life or why you did what you did. (Ever read Nathaniel Hawthorne's The Scarlet Letter? Yeah, that's the idea.)
Life is unforgiving, and so are those around you. What is more is that you will be the most unforgiving out of all the people surrounding you. You will hate yourself and chastise your sanity away until it disappears. Your life and your future will start to wither away before your eyes because you will compare your life to those of others while you're down and depressed. You will feel hat you will never get to where they are.
All those things you know other people are sayign about you -- you will start to believe them. And you will feel valueless and worthless. There will be days when you are high on life, but then you'll crash at night. You will be glad that you're alive on some days, but it is the other days in between when you toss and turn and your insides twist -- that's when you will want to just disappear, or fall asleep and never to wake up, while reserving half a sliver of hope that God might have mercy on you and grant you a pleasant dream.
So if you're every tempted to do somethign you think you might regret, don't do it. Conversely, if you think you will regret not doing something, chances are, you are right.
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