A Long Way Down this Rabbit Hole

i love you so much. you are going to do the best and be the best at anything that you put your efforts towards. find what's important to you and hold on, because there is the possibility of it taking you to places you never imagined. You are going places, even though you may be staying physically stationary.

oh and for the high height thing, just think your feet are about 5 feet below your head so you're actually only about 5-7 feet off the ground. you'll get it. when we come up next time (i don't know when that will be) we will go climbing together and i will be there to help you get your grove back, if you hadn't already on your own. Sometimes we have to do things by ourselves so that we can be vulnerable and achieve that goal at hand, to figure out the solution without any beta (help, climber term for help). That's why i like climbing so much. it forces me to pull my head out of my butt and see the light at the end of the tunnel for other issues to deal with that i've been avoiding.

You are entering that 'Brave New World!' but you know that fall down the rabbit hole can be a long one sometimes. just be patient. Good things take a long time to get. And those things that take the time, are the ones that last forever.

i love you.



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Brave New World!
Date: Jan 5, 2008 9:42 PM


I went climbing again today. I'm not very warmed up to it yet ... I caught myself panicking when I realized how high I was. I was never terribly afraid of heights when we climbed back then, but I am now. I think it is a reflection of a fall I have somewhere else in my life. But the whole time, I was thinking about you and missed you really bad. I miss how you would encourage me to go up and on ... and I don't know exactly why I'm crying right now.

The "if they can do it, I can do it" spirit from the giant collage poster you gave me is still there ... I think I just need some time. After all, it's not easy to have been down for so long .... I am going to conquer all of this. And I know you're there right behind me. :)

I love you, Nor!! :)