Just Because I Can Doesn't Mean I Should (a little help?)

I am a very very bad procrastinator, who is very very good at doing quality last minute work, a skill that I developed through my undergrad years. The fact that I have been trained as a performer since I was 6 doesn't help either ... you really have to think on your feet. It's called improv.

Most of my quality papers -- even work that have been published -- are last minute jobs. All of my jobs in the past have required lots of improv work and thinking at the last minute. I mean, why not? I can do it! In fact, some call it a talent!

But lately I've found that this isn't going to work. The fact of the matter is that maybe all the things that I have handled before have been easy. Or maybe what I am about to handle is going to be hard. One way or another, the corporate world is not going to be forgiving and cater to me.

I KNOW for a fact that I have the ability to be organized and be on a schedule. That has happened before. But it seems that I have always needed special inspiration to do it -- if the problem is challenging enough, it'll entice me to get a head-start; if I am emotionally responsible to a certain duty, I'll do it as soon as I can so as to be praised (I'm attention-driven). But you know what? The world is not always going to go my way. I can't always be picky with what situation I get myself in. I can't always do whatever the hell I want. Just because I can doesn't mean I should.

I can't make excuses for myself anymore. I need a change. I need to change. I need a little help.