Nooo!

I am angry at myself this morning.

I put on some jeans, and realized that I've grown maybe a size bigger. The belt area, buttocks and thigh areas are

tight.

I am angry at myself because I let myself get to this point. I knew I'd be angry, and I knew I'd feel like this, but still, I let it go on.

My habits (or lack thereof) sucks. I don't climb anymore. My diet sucks. I mean, it's great that I have food to eat now, and I don't just eat a cookie for dinner like I used to when I was extremely poor and was alone. But I eat more than I need for what I do. I go to school, and arrive at 6:30am. Ever since then, I sit until it is 9:30. For 15 hours, I sit.

My arms have no strength. My abs have no strength.

Very frustrated. And I need to do something fast.