Wheel-Treading

Everyday, I wake up feeling awful. I go through my day feeling awful. I go to bed feeling awful. And then the same thing over and over again.

What's the point? I guess if I'm more optimistic, I'd say I'm in pain not for what I did, but for what I will be.

But I want to be what I will be with that person I love. He wasn't perfect, but I was patient with his flaws. How could I be foresaken like that? How could something that started with so much meaning end up devoid of everything? Nothing left. Nothing but that awful sick feeling I go through everyday over and over again.