Very random thoughts

Very random thoughts

I have been having lots of "relationship nightmares" lately. A couple nights ago, I saw that Brian put his arms around someone else's shoulders in front of me -- as if to test my patience or to spite me, he did more of it when I got angry. In last night's dream, he was talking on his phone in bed right next to me, fondly reminescing about his relationship with his ex-girlfriend. It made me so angry. What's worse is that he wouldn't take me seriously, even when I started throwing pillows at him and telling him that I hate him (I don't, really).

These dreams would leave me completely exhausted and unhappy in the morning. Like today. I've been very cranky this morning, and that doesn't make things easier than it should -- today's supposed to be my off-day, except that I'm here on campus at 6:30am. Yay.

And I've been a crappy friend lately. That makes me feel very guilty because, well, I'm supposed to be a good friend. That must be changed.

Brian is sick. Poor boy. I just wish that I could make it all better for him.

And I hope I don't get it.