With or Without

It's 12:39am.

I went upstairs. I wanted to see him. I wanted to touch his face, his hand, his hair on his forehead ... I wanted to tell him I love him despite all else.

He was sleeping. The cat was sleeping right next to him.

And here I am. Why am I alone? Why do I have to cry my heart out alone?

It's 12:40am now, and I can tell you how quiet it is in the middle of the night. It's so quiet that you hear ringing in your ears. It's so quiet that you hear your own heartbeat. It's so quiet that you just don't want to exist because you feel so alone.

Because you know people still sleep in peace and the world still goes on with or without you.