Being Quite Bold

I am thinking about my future right now.

I actually am swimming about in some thoughts of not returning to the MIM program this year after all. There seems to be certain other things that I need to do before re-entrance. I know that I am on a time limit here, and I have just wasted about 20,000 dollars in tuition (which I will see if I can adjust my credits to use to my advantage somehow). But the first and primary thing is that I feel that I am too rushed right now. It sounds like a "bad excuse," but the reality is just that: I don't have enough time to regroup, and I don't feel that this is the time for me to wrap up my graduate studies. True, there are many roads I can take, like actually finishing up, but at the same time, I could go another route, couldn't I? Does it really matter which route I take, just as long as I'm going and going somewhere meaningful?

I have made mistakes before, and if this turns out to be a mistake, then it wouldn't be my first one, nor would it be my last one. So I wonder what the big deal is.

My cousin pointed something very interesting out to me the other day: I should "be like him" and work for an airline company. It sounds rather silly, I know, but the interesting thing about it is that I can work for Alaska airlines, for example, and live in Seattle or Portland, and I get cheap plane tickets. Remember how I want to travel? Remember that I want to live? Remember all that? Why don't I do something like that and live some life before I get too buried? Trust me. In the whole scheme of things, I will have plenty of time to join the rat race.

So right now, why don't I just focus on
- getting the UO gig done,
- getting my driver's license,
- taking the GMAT (if I want to),
- getting a new job that has something to do with traveling opportunities (if I want to relocate, that's an option),
- getting a loan to pay the 17,700 dollars I owe PSU (Bank of America will be more than happy to if I commit to paying back about 550 dollars a month for the next 36 months),
- and figure something out with my school program to reserve my credits for something else (if that's possible)?

Why don't I solve the problem by simplifying my life? If I don't think for myself and support myself in my endeavors, who will? I just want some relief and freedom in my life. I don't want to be chained anymore. It's been way too long.