A Sigh

Sometimes, a lot like today, I get deflated thinking about what things I can do and what I want to do, what I should do to let my life pan out to its full potentials, and hoping for the future to work out in a way that will make me happy.

Sometimes, I just feel like I don't know what to tell the world (employers, especially) I can offer and trust that they will appreciate me. It's really a rough process to go through -- to innately believe that you're worth it even though all your life, you've been mostly under-valued and under-appreciated. You see, a lot of the times, norms, false perceptions and fictitious expectations drowns out your voice. How do I at least still hear my own through the noise?

Although it is by my own choosing that I should undergo such a process as self-empowerment, it still doesn't make the process any easier. Worse yet, the harder you try, the more you feel confused and drowned at times.

And what do I do? I just stop thinking about it, at least for the hour, or for the day, and try to find something else to do that it is more interesting at the moment, like eating, (definitely) writing, cleaning, maybe even stopping by Powell's at Cedar Hills later and then grab a cup of coffee on the way ... then hope that tomorrow, when you go back at it, will be better.