Cleansing

At first, I thought I'd do it differently this time: I'd remember him, I'd accept him as part of my "past life," I'd accept him as a "figure with meaning." But now I think, if I keep remembering him, he will continue to be alive in my life ... through me.

I know I can't completely wipe him away from my life -- the shadows of him will live on -- but only as reminders of how far I've come. I want to cleanse the wound in my soul of his dirt. I'm going to have for him a funeral, so what remnants that substantiate his existence in my mind will forever rest in peace, dead and gone.